Apparently, there is a name for my specific memory condition. It’s called “retentive memory”. For awhile I thought I had another memory condition, but after further research retentive memory describes my recollection ability perfectly. I think it’s super cool that there’s a name for it, that seems to have validated the fact that I have it on an emotional level. I think that’s my self-consciousness speaking, however: It’s unfortunate that I needed to see that it’s “a thing”, something recognized by researchers, to make me feel validated. In a perfect world, my experiences should have been all that I needed, right? Oh well.
The upshot is that there’s really no reason for me to watch a movie that I was paying attention to more than once, or read a book twice, or … Meh. I used to envy my ex-wife that we could watch the same movie a year later and she would be entertained by it just like the first time we watched it. Now I’m just happy to remember to keep my mouth shut around people about it, no one wants to hear their exact words repeated to them from a conversation that happened 6 months ago! Unless there is a compelling reason for me to say something, I’m learning to keep quiet about it. I don’t remain silent because I care about their opinion of me, far from it, but my own opinion of myself is rooted in the idea that I’m a polite person and so for politeness sake I refrain.
Thanks for reading!
Nathan C. Tresch